Friday, November 30, 2007
Later...The "not knowing" is driving me crazy. I don't know how much more I can take. People lovingly try to tell me not to dwell on it. How can I not dwell on it? It's like T said, if your child was in the hospital for a month and they told you to go home and think about something else, could you do that? We are J's parents. How can we not think about him when he is not with us? Yes, we do carry on with our lives. We do have two other children in the home and have really enjoyed our time with them. We've played a lot of games and watched movies, sharing with them movies that we enjoyed when we were their age. Our time with them is great. But how can we not think about J? He exists. He is real. We've met him. He is a part of our lives. I wish there was a way for the Haitian officials to understand our love for our son and how it breaks our hearts to have to wait so long. It's a seemingly needless wait. None of it makes sense to me. God's plan is not making sense to me. But I have no choice but to lay it at His feet. So I do.
Wednesday, November 28, 2007
Friday, November 23, 2007
Thursday, November 22, 2007
That's not the headless horseman on the end, that's T. Hey, at least we were having fun.
And the girls wanted one with the cats. I am holding a cat, he's just so dark you can't see him. And the other two are looking at him because at the last second before the timer went off he looked at them and meowed. In the close up of the picture he looks like he's baring his fangs. Too funny.
Monday, November 19, 2007
I don't know what's going on with this, if it's our connection or what. I hope it works for you because I'm having a hard time getting it to load. Sorry if it doesn't work.
This is a video presentation that we put together last year for Adoption Awareness month. Most of the pics are from July ’06. Never mind the date printed on them. I wrote the song for J in June ’06. I never thought I’d still be singing it a year and a half later. I’m ready to sing a new song. It was recorded at our church, just kind of a “one take, play the keyboard and sing and hope it turns out” thing. This song and video presentation is copyrighted to us. We hope that you enjoy it but wouldn’t use it or post it in part or whole without our permission.
~ I don’t know exactly what to blog about. So much is on my mind. Since Thanksgiving is only three days away and we haven’t heard any news about the adoption moving forward, I’d say it’s safe to say that J won’t be here. Not that I think God can’t do it, just that it’s not time yet. Like Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego told king Nebbie, I know my God is able but even if He doesn’t, I won’t bow to your idol. I’m not going to bow to depression. I’m not going to bow to defeat. We just have to trust that God knows what He’s doing and surrender our will to His. It still hurts but we’re going to choose to be thankful anyway.
~ We’ve been enjoying some older movies that were popular “back in our day” with our girls. It’s funny to watch their reactions to the clothes and hairstyles that were popular then. We just finished Karate Kid. Something that spoke to me was that Daniel didn’t understand how the things he was doing were helping him learn karate. He couldn’t see how waxing the cars, sanding the deck and painting the house were teaching him what he needed to know. He did most of it without asking questions but finally got frustrated with this old man who he felt was “using him”. Then the old man showed him how to use what he had learned and the muscles that he had built. Maybe for right now we are waxing cars and painting a house and learning what we need to know.
~ I have some people who are concerned about me. I will be fine. Psalm 108:1-2 says, “My heart is steadfast, O God; I will sing and make music with all my soul. Awake, harp and lyre! I will awaken the dawn.” I can honestly say I was happy to be at church yesterday morning, singing and making music with all my soul. We will survive.
Saturday, November 17, 2007
There was an open house at work last night to kick off the Christmas season. We were very busy and had every kind of sweet treats you could think of. R was doing a play and A was at a friend's house. T just stayed in town since I didn't have a vehicle.
Speaking of vehicles, T is working on the truck today. He was going to move the gas tank from behind the seat to underneath. He cleaned up the new-used one and when he went to put it on, it didn't fit. Back to square one with that. He planned on having it road worthy this week. Sigh...he is working on door handles though and the brake lights do work now.
This afternoon A did the last play that she was working in. R's last play of that one was Wed. Now she has to finish up her other play and we can take a break. She still has tonight and then next Friday and Saturday. Both girls are already talking about trying out for the next one. Whew! I need a break.
Please pray for us. The adoption process feels overwhelming and like it will never end. I know Thanksgiving hasn't come and gone yet, but we haven't even gotten any news. Hence the depression.
Tuesday, November 13, 2007
Here are a few pics. I didn't think we'd get any color in the trees because of the drought but I've been pleasantly surprised. I may post a few more over the next few days. These are from yesterday. A and R took them when they went for a horse ride after school.
This is the newly weaned Lillybet.
This is the trail they ride up in the woods.
There's a little bit of color in the trees.
And there are some that are downright showing off.
A took a pic of R on my dad's horse, Arrow.
And R took a pic of A on my horse, Lady. R's horse, Bridget, is doing okay right now. She had sore feet again last week but seems all right for now. R did hop on her to see how she'd do and it was fine but she didn't want to push anything.
And another fall pretty. I'm not really sure what my favorite fall color is. I think it's the bright orange. Yellow is okay and I like red but there's something about the brilliant orange that I really like.
That's it for now.
Saturday, November 10, 2007
I love this one. Both cats got up there and Sona has her head resting on Dexter's butt. There he is again with the nose tucked into the paws. Too funny. Gotta love it.
Friday, November 9, 2007
The dogs got a hold of the goat's bottle. They chewed the entire top of the bottle off. We can't find the ring or the nipple. Don't worry, we have a back up. The nipple on it is very flimsy though. Should be interesting. Oreo ate a check of mine once. My employer at that time had sent a package of scrap material and a check and the UPS man set it on the floor of the porch. I didn't even know it was there. T found some scrap material in the front yard and asked if I'd been working out there. All the packaging was gone. Every bit of paper was consumed. We had a very expensive dog, for a day or so. I was issued a new check amidst much laughter. This is the dog that brought us a pair of boxer shorts one day but I think I've already told that tale. (punny)
Please pray for us. The adoption wait is so hard. Sometimes it feels too hard to bear. Obviously, no news yet. I know God has a plan and I'm to praise Him even if I don't understand it. I have felt burdened to pray about it more than usual over the past couple of days. I keep 3 little devotional type books and always find it interesting how the one I pick up to read will speak to me so often. One of the books is "My Utmost for His Highest" and I think I read the wrong day today but even that was a God thing. The one I read today which was actually yesterday's was titled "The Unrivaled Power of Prayer" and the verse at the top is Romans 8:26 "We know not what we should pray for as we ought: but the Spirit itself maketh intercession for us with groanings which cannot be uttered." How weird is that? So then I decided to look at what I thought was yesterdays and was actually Wednesday's and it was titled "The Undetected Sacredness of Circumstances". The verse for that one is Romans 8:28 "All things work together for good to them that love God." I don't think I read those by accident. I don't think I got the days mixed up by accident. I think God used those writings for "such a time as this" and they spoke to me what I needed to hear.
I've been leery, or weary of our Thursday prayer days with the other people who are adopting through the same O that we are because we started it out with bad news 3 weeks in a row. Yesterday morning I decided that I was going to praise God, good news, bad news or no news. Guess what? No news. But I did praise God anyway, just like we learned in the movie "Facing the Giants". It's not an easy thing to do but I believe it's the right thing. My flesh wants to scream and holler and cry 'cause let's face it. I'm sick of this waiting. It makes no sense. I don't know how it can possibly be good. But I'm supposed to believe that God has a plan and praise Him anyway. So I do. I praise Him that the kids are healthy. I praise Him for the beautiful colors on the trees. I praise Him for the sunsets that it feels like He painted just for me. I praise Him that the bills are paid (at the moment anyway). I praise Him for the love of a good man, a man who loves God. I praise Him for our goofy critters. I praise Him for a warm bed and for letting us discover down comforters. Life is hard but God is good.
Wednesday, November 7, 2007
Tuesday, November 6, 2007
I thought I'd share some newer pics with you. This first one is at the O. I told you his face was expressive! I don't know what that expression is, but it's definitely something. Maybe he was trying to do the funny lip thing that his daddy showed him when we were there in June. That looks like a possibility. Or maybe somebody "did a boom" as J calls it.
This one is in church or Sunday school, I'm not sure which. J is on the left. There's that expressive face again. I'd say he's really enjoying it, wouldn't you?
This is at the baby's/girl's house where the kids can use Skype to call home on Sunday afternoons. J is talking to us.
Oh yes, he's happy about talking to his family.
That's it for now. Please keep praying for us. The wait is so painfully long.
Sunday, November 4, 2007
We had a nice, though short visit with T's aunt and uncle. They got in late Thur. evening and stayed until Sat. morning. They park their motorcoach in the front yard and plug it in and they're ready.
We had a nice church service. It was very nice to be at church last Sunday and not have to lead music but it actually felt good to lead again this morning. It's still not what I'd rather be doing but after two weeks off, I was okay with it. One lady did a special performance this morning of signing (doing sign language) to the Nicole C. Mullen song "When I Call On Jesus" and that was beautiful. I love that song anyway but to see it in sign language was very moving.
T is going on a short "mission trip" this week with a few others to help some people from our church whose house was damaged in Katrina. They have now bought a house here and need to do a few more things to their other house so it can be sold.
Things are really cooling off here. Still not much rain and the trees are just kind of turning brown and falling off. There is a little color in the leaves but it's pretty drab looking. Lillybet, the goat, is eating like she's storing up for winter. Her little belly sticks out on both sides. All the animals are getting their winter coats. I love it when they do that. The horses are so soft and Lillybet is fluffy. I got some material today to make beds for the dogs for winter. I get the $1 a yard flannel and fill it with cedar shavings in the hopes that they will smell better. They love them. Then about the time they start falling apart in the spring we can just scoop them up and throw them away.
I hope we get some good news this week on the adoption papers. I'm so happy the Fry's have finally brought their children home. You can check out their story following the link for them in my "blogs I read" list. They've waited a long time for this. I hope we're right behind them.
Well, we've got a busy week ahead with work, school, plays, mission trip, etc. I'll post as I can.
Thursday, November 1, 2007
The Hallelujah Harvest party went well too. We gave away 24 cakes in the cake walk. The kids played lots of games and got a lot of candy. The hay bale maze was a big hit again as it always is. It’s funny, we get done and are cleaning up from one and we start planning “next year let’s do this”. We just need to remember to write the ideas down one of these years so we remember for the next year.
No news yet on the adoption front.
I had all this stuff in my head that I wanted to blog about and now it’s just gone. Maybe it will show up again in a later post. So here are some pics from the party in no particular order.
This is one of our deacons dressed up as our elder. They guy shaved the top of his head so he could look like him. Too funny. People kind of knew who he was dressed as but they didn't recognize who he really was. He didn't have a hearing aid (the "elder" is my dad and he uses hearing aids in both ears) so he borrowed this megaphone thing. It was hysterical.
These are my parents, the Rhinestone Cowgirl and the National Ping Pong Champ. On the back of the shirt it says "Gump 01".
That's me over there as Pippi Longstocking. I had the monkey and the mismatched socks and all and people kept calling me Wendy, I guess from the Wendy's commercial.
Close up of Pippi and Mr. Neilson. The red hair dye was fun getting out.
One of the 24 cakes we gave away. This one was shaped like a pumpkin. Very creative.
Another set of "twins".
Here's the other set again.
R doing face painting on a little guy.
R with A sneaking in to the pic.
Hay bale maze without the covering.
The "a-maze-ing" guys.
That's it for now. Gotta run.