Wow, mid-February already?!

I was talking to our pastor's twin sons, who just turned 12 in December I think, and they were telling me that they were going to be 13 on their next birthday. And that they wouldn't be "kids anymore-we're going to be teenagers!" I was exclaiming with them about where has the time gone and one of them said, "I know, don't you just want to slap yourself? It's crazy how time is going so fast." Ha! Cracked me up! I was thinking, honey if you think it 's going fast now just wait 'til you're my age!

I remember as each of our kids went from the time of their lives where time just dragged by to where it started picking up and they noticed it to where it's just flying by. I noticed it the most in J as he went from waiting for 4 years to have a family, in a country that moves painfully slow, right into the rush that is the US way of life. He used to marvel at how fast time goes by in America.

It's funny, he was a "slave to the clock" when he first got here. He had to know ahead of time, what time any event in his life was going to take place. If it varied by even a few minutes he had a tendency to come unglued. Once we figured out that it was a sense of security for him we tried harder to make things happen on the clock and to prepare him better for any variance. He's a lot more easy going now but still does better when things happen on time.

All that to say, holy crap it's the middle of February already?!? And I have one less teenager this week than I did last week. Happy birthday A! You are 20! How in the world did that happen? Doesn't it make you want to slap yourself? It's just crazy. (Ha!) You are a beautiful young woman. An ambitious person. You are setting your sights and going after it. We love you dearly.

Adoption feelings

We've been busy getting ready for our church's 10th Anniversary celebration this Sunday. It's good that I've been busy because it helps keep my mind occupied. I've been doing okay with the wait the last couple of weeks even with the news about wrong file numbers and missing second legal stamps. Until yesterday when I saw a pic of J when we first started the adoption process. He was just a little boy and now he looks so much older. He is so much older. I thought about all the time with him that we've had robbed from us. It broke me down and I cried for the time that should have been ours together. Isn't that just like satan to try and rob us of everything good? he's such a jerk. But God is in control. He has a plan. Plans to prosper us. Plans to work things together for our good. ~ My problems and frustrations were brought into perspective when I "cyber met" these people. http://www.cfhusband.blogspot.com/ I learned about them from another one of the moms adopting from the same O that we are. A friend of hers roomed with Tricia's sister in college. This is a young woman with cystic fibrosis who was being put on the lung transplant list but then she found out she was pregnant. The pregnancy has taken a toll on her body and they had to put her on a ventilator and take the baby at only 6 months along. The baby weighs 1 lb. 6 oz. and her momma has been asleep since she was born. Pray for these people. I feel a kinship of sorts with them maybe because Tricia was adopted and maybe because Nate is a worship leader. I don't know. But here is a family where two members are fighting for their lives. A husband and father whose wife and child are in critical condition. Our son is not with us but he is happy and healthy. I thank God for that.
Amy